My body and me

Don't you hate it when you abosolutely need your body to do something and it just wont. That's what it's been like for me all day, well...all week. My body has finally decided enough is enough.

I tried to play racqueteball. I did win some games in my class, but the "duh debi" games that i should have won I just couldn't get my body to play. I couldn't hit the ball with my racquete, I couldn't move fast, it's like i was in jello and couldn't move at all.

Then I skipped swimming class on Tuesday this week. I just couldn't get myself to go "Yea! it's swimming!" I think if I did go to swimming I would've drownd. There's no way I could have swam 500 Meters. My body was dead.

In my aerobics class, lately I've been doing half the intensity. I say to my body "Let's go! This is fun stuff. Show that step what's up" and no, it says back "grrrrr....you gotta be kidding me....you just got done with karate and you want me to do what? I don't think so."

Today I was going to belay some people in my ropes coarse class but my right shoulder wasn't going to have it at all. It screamed at me "no way! Pain, hurtful pain, lots of pain, you do and I'm firing myself!" and that was it. I couldn't do it. I let someone else and I sat around and did nothing.

So now I'm using my rice heat pack more often on my shoulder. My body has to work for me next week. I can't skip class it's almost midterms.

I'm hoping that this weekend will be relaxful and that my body will recover. I HOPE!